As I was thinking about that quote, I got to wondering if there was Bible verse to support it. Well, my faithful Saviour gave me the verse I needed. Notice I said He gave me the verse I needed - not necessarily the verse I thought would prove my point!
Psalm 39:7 says, "And now, Lord, what wait I for? my hope is in thee."
Here is where I started arguing with the Lord. Why? I had several reasons (excuses) I offered to the Lord. "Aren't I living on the mission field like You asked me to?" "What in the world will people think if I share these thoughts with them?" "People won't understand, and I hate being misunderstood." "Do I have to, Lord???" Let me be perfectly honest....even as I type this, I am fighting the urge to hit the delete button and get rid of this entire post! I cannot escape the Lord's promptings, however.
The Lord directed my eyes to my house. "What do you see, Sarah?" the Lord whispered to me. The question demanded an honest answer. "I see a house with a family living in it. A family who has decided to follow You, Lord. I see a wife/mom who is waiting....." And that's where the Lord stopped me!
It was exactly what my Lord wanted me to see. He was trying to lovingly and gently correct an error in my life. Yes, I am on the mission field. Yes, praise the Lord, my heart is even here. I love Peru. I love living here. I love the adventure of being a foreigner in a foreign land! I dearly love the people God has given us to love and to teach. But at that exact moment in time, I realized I was existing, not being. Do you see the difference?
Like the Psalmist said, "And now, Lord, what wait I for?" I realized that I have been busy "waiting," not busy "being." I hadn't settled completely. I've fallen into the trap of "What's coming next in my life?" I realized that I must "BE" before the Lord can do anything with me or even bring me to the "next thing" in my life. I thought of my children - what kind of example have I been to them? Of course I want them to think and plan and pray about their futures, but I want them to be content with the "Here and Now."
So...the next question is, "How am I going to correct my error?" Good question. Here's what the Lord has given me for an answer. I am going to put my hope (my future, my plans, my desires) in the Lord. With the Lord's help, I am going to have that little garden I've been dreaming about this summer. I am going to get those pictures framed and hung on the walls. Naturally, I think..."Well, Lord, I'll do all this and then You'll move me!" While that may be true, that is still somewhere in the future, and that's where it should stay.
...And then there was joy! Joy filled my heart as I thought of how easy it really is to just "BE," and allow the Lord to have my future, as well as my past. I thought of how we love to quote, "...forgetting those things which are behind...," but what about letting go of the future? Please understand that I am by no means saying to forget about the future, don't have any plans...just "live for the moment!" No, we need to have plans and goals and dreams. I am saying that sometimes we get so wrapped up in those plans, goals, and dreams that they become more important to us than where we are at the moment. They consume us until we cannot just "BE" what the Lord wants us to be right now.
The joy of being. Do you know that joy? Are you letting the Lord give you that joy every day? I'm trying, and with the Lord's help I will succeed. You can too!
Psalm 39:7 "And now, Lord, what wait I for? my hope is in thee."